A letter to those who left,

Dear friends,

Isn't it a wonder how time has sure flied? Away the years passed, with its ticking minutes, and its distance that stretches further beyond our reach of the telephone. It has been too long since I've dropped you your hello's.

Hello.

It's nice to see that all of you are doing well. Age has grown over every one of you gracefully, with as much joy and purpose any youth would dream to achieve. I am glad the best has come your ways.

It seems that most of you are surrounded with such wonderful company, or flown across borders to fulfill your dreams; marking things off of your bucket list, one step at a time. I am proud, and ever so happy to see all of you glistening with the esteem you deserve.

I still remember when I was able to share my times with you - though quite a long while ago - they were to me, gleeful times that I personally shant let go of.

What happiness provoked me come the school bell ring us its end - we'd crowd the exits with cheers and laughter. Hugs went 'round, one friend to another. Good byes were difficult, but the smiles never quite ceased to boast their presence, even behind the whispers and the gossips of a teenage drama.

It was nice having friends around.

It was nice being able to feel appreciated for at least a moment in my life.

But alas, winds they roll, and leaves must change; seasons never stay the same, not one summer to the other: and now, it has been so long since I've last been able to see any of you.

To even drop a "how are you" makes me anxious, for I already know the answer to that question. You are doing great - all of you.

And I am glad. Truly.

I just - I - perhaps I just wish you could share some of that joy with me. Wasn't that what we did not just two years ago? Two years wasn't even the longest of times. Surely, not all of you have already forgotten me?

Or..

.. Uh.

But at least you are doing well!

I thank you for coming into my life anyways, even though, it is time I realize the door has been agape far too long, and that all of you have already.. left.

And maybe, if you are wondering, I may say I am doing fine too! Well - not completely, but.. I am doing alright. Sure, I have not quite achieved much, nor have I found new friends to fill your spaces but I am doing okay.

I think.

I am alive at least.

Did you notice?

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Nevermind that. I still offer my gratitude.. because I believe - or, believed - we were friends before.

Yeah, I am glad that you are all doing well.

I just wish I was too.