Sunday, February 16, 2014

Anxiety Club: Session 1

[3.00am] Stomach churning, head light, head spinning. I should make the call.

[3.15am] Sensation rising, palms sweating, heart beating faster.

[3.18am] Legs shaking, hands twitching, losing breath. Body racing away.

[3.30am] Explode.

[4.00am] Tears. The sheets are no friend. The walls are only enemies.

[5.00am] Blood pumping. Shivering. Sit up. Get water, piss, lie down.

[5.30am] Implode.

[6.00am] Purge.

[6.05am] Confess. Apologize.

[6.12am] Breathe.

When you've got something to lose, every second you live in fear of losing it.

Call it paranoia.

Call it caring too much.

Call it a gentle suicide, maybe.

And murder weapon?

You.

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